my new life.

matthew woke up this morning and told me he dreamed
of wining a toy from the "claw game"
which happens to be one of his
biggest aspirations in life at the moment.
he told me he won an elephant for aiya...
yes it's truly a dream
that he would be so giving.

i just can't tell you how bizarre it is to drop him off at school
in the morning
after a 5 year run as my baby.
he goes in with no hesitation
and tries to keep up with abraham
who is supposed to walk him to class
(they wont let the parents in anymore...those haters)
i think it's more like a game of
follow the leader while
zig-zagging thru the hall
than a protective, loving escort
with a pat on the back and a "see ya later"
he has to keep it cool i guess.

carlos and i ran some errands today
with no kids to wrangle.
again...bizarre.

i find myself smiling at moms
who are chasing their toddlers
or pushing strollers
and saying things like
"i remember those days"
or "they grow up fast."

so very bizarre.